Panchito‘s Diary

im 28 (I think) done with my University. I ve been 23 years in the education system and it took me a long time to notice that the system was trying to build a machine. that does a job good enough to profit off it. But after very bad vibes I came to realise that I dont want to take part of this shit.

So what now? Should I do what some people around me do and just leave for a “exotic” country and try to ignore what happens around? I left my fucking “paradise” country because I wanted to feel secure. But now I got the two pills in front of me.

Do u want to be a slave and half safe in this country?

or

Do u want to be in constant fear in ur country?

Well, first of all I dont take pills from strangers, neither should u.

I think I can have a bigger impact in the place I was raised, because we actually listen and are open for a change cuz we’ve been in a flux since we exist. Here to be different is to be out, let me explain;

Germany is an old Grandpa, sour and apathetic, he wants potatoes and meat on the table, we will complaint about the food but never learn how to cook and will refuse to eat fucking couscous because “der Bauer isst nicht was der nicht kennt” He’ll die soon, but will never change a thing. I get why, I know German history.

Ecuador is a middle aged unemployed closeted uncle that has a problem with weed. He’s friendly until he’s drunk, he wanted to be the best shoemaker of the world but nobody believes in him. So he’s trying to survive and might even consider rehab.

I’ve chosen “male” examples in this analogy because both societies are patriarchal. But Ecuador is definitely more zesty.

in contrast I want to offer the other side.

Germany is also the NB vegan emo kid, with an Blåhaj obsession that goes to the streets to fight for the communities that need the most while having a very sweet polycule.

Ecuador is also the latina that has a lot of fun, cares about her family and doesn’t take a shit of anybody, but still gives her best to try to reach independence.

What am I heading at?

I dont know, and that’s fine. I dont want a “I can fix them” relationship with my residence country. But is that possible?