Panchito‘s Diary

When I think about a dictator, I think about “dictar” in Spanish, which is very bound to school. Someone says and u write.

I like that, but I like to read to even more.

I like to read my poems, diaries, articles and whatever I wrote.

I think I wanna be a dictator because I want people to listen to me.

Because I have a lot to say?! why would I have so much in my mind tho?!

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This is all performative, I don’t wanna dictate nobody what to say or do, who the fuck am I to say that.

But it’s a copping mechanism. If I dictate people to be efficient, we will be sooner at home. If I dictate my coworkers to enjoy the shift, we won’t have dreams and nightmares about work. If I dictate my friends that they should be on time, we will spend more time together. If I dictate my loved ones to not hurt me, then relationships might live longer. But none of this ever happened.

I am frustrated, politically, morally and socially.

I don’t think that “democracy” is a good idea (this is gonna bite me back in my political career, don’t quote me pls!) because u shouldn’t let people decide if good means good. there are universal things like this joke white people called “universal human rights” that only apply to them or their friends. This reminds me of “Animal Farm” by George Orwell. After a farm revolution, was written as a reminder “4 legs good, 2 legs bad” and when the animals began to imitate the behaviour of the humans, the quote was “4 legs good, 2 legs better”

I want to become a dictator to dictate that there is no negotiation over empathy. That’s a rule. There is no capital, convenience or system that can overcome that. U can not kill when u fell the pain, u cannot abuse if u fell the suffering. If an eye for an eye leaves the world blind, we might need that, for the coming generations to ensure not to do the same mistake.

I wanna become a dictator, to dictate a basis on which people re-learn the importance of communities and small scale societies. I want them to become informed, prepared and I want them to flourish! and when that happens, ill be thrown out. And that’s my goal. my last test. If u learned anything about this dictatorship is that u should abolish it, because empathy became the norm and my job is now useless.

I don’t like to dictate, but I want to, because there is people that also want to dictate, but they like it, and that’s dangerous.