Panchito‘s Diary

It feels kinda silly when my friends tell me that they broke up cuz after hearing those words I just smile and feel very good about them.

it’s easy to get into a relationship (its actually not) because u get a very strong positive attitude at the beginning -falling in love- I think it is called. Of course some have more struggles with that than others, but after learning to accept someone else, the rest goes along the way.

But getting out of your comfort zone to break up what has been built with time and love. That’s comparable to shave your head. Not everyone can do that willingly, and if so, will take a lot of passion and a strong will power to take the step. (friends, please shave your heads, believe me, its humbling af and u can find some hidden trinkets in there)

I’m proud when my loved ones are growing up and getting better at putting a stop to dangerous and harmful situations.

Maybe I’m projecting too much. I still mourn some dead relationships, and I wish someone had told me, that learning something from a relationship is 50% about being in it and 50% letting it go. (Im a poet. I know.)

My saddest artworks were made literally in pain, sorrow and other emo feelings. All of them because a relationship ended. I couldn’t be happy the moment I had to break up, so I want to be happy for my friends when they can’t do that either.

Final shootout to all my peeps who left people behind that even when we loved them, we decided that loving us first is the healthiest way to live.

I kinda am very resentful, and I judged that part of myself for a long time, but I’ve learned that I need that feeling to vent and overcome whatever pain roots in my heart and soul.

So here are some lyrics from a song that is yet to be recorderd by me ❤ don’t get scared pls.

Scratching and bleeding 

You stick to my skin

Tried to rob me of my sins

Hurt the places i fear

Stopped my brains go clean

Heavy weights on my breathing 

Nightmares where you stay here

Sounds of your crying

And pieces of your moans

Liar

Liar

The smell of ur indifference, makes me wanna puke

The taste of ur incompetence, breaks my only fuse

Stay away or i will scream, hit and bleed and cry.

Stay in your lane or someone is gonna die

Liar

Liar

U seem to catch only whats futile

Not a surprise u ve always been the maker of allibys

Crawl under my tounge

Under my feet

And under my fucking hide

Treat me right, like u ever dreamt

And fucking vaporise

I feel the hate, flowing off your eyes, ruining the sundown. 

Kiss a hand, spit your lies. And enjoy ur mediocre life.